Monday, January 5, 2009

DECISIONS, DECISIONS, DECISIONS!!!!!!!!

As a child, we get sick of everyone telling us what to do. We want to be able to decide for ourselves.

Then, when we become adults, and all the consequences of those decisions rest on our shoulders, it is no longer attractive.

Can't someone make the decision for me?!?!?!?

Where should we move to?

I want to move because I'm not really happy here in South Bend. Everything is so limited. For example, when I looked into boxing there was little to nothing available in this area; so then I started looking into becoming a yoga instructor and again very little if anything. Also it seems the cost is always higher because of the lack of supply.

And don't get me started on the lack of sunshine around this place. Today was a sunny one -- thank God! But normally we can go weeks at a time and never see it. I can't handle that.

So places we'd really consider moving to--

Colorado Springs, CO = We have a friend there (who used to live here) and he says if we visit we'll never leave. He loves it. It offers the 4 season (that Jesus loves) and 300 days of sunshine a year (which I love). Also the school systems have taken on a new way of paying teachers -- less seniority based, more merit based -- which I like.

Austin, TX = It's TEXAS (my home state), it's the music capital of the world (Jesus LOVES good live music), they have real Mexican food, it's a liberal minded city (like us), it's closer to my family. It's warm and sunshiny. I have a friend living there.

San Antonio, TX = It's TEXAS, they have real Mexican food, some of my family lives there, and it is closer to the rest of my family, it's warm and sunshiny.

Even though San Antonio has less of the things we want, it has family, and that is important to Jesus and I as we get closer to actually starting a family.

Any comments?

Saturday, January 3, 2009

Random Thoughts

Christmas

This Christmas Jesus and I didn't buy gifts for each other and we asked our families not to buy gifts for us either. Believe it or not, everyone granted our wish. It was a great Christmas. We were able to focus on the joy of giving as opposed to receiving. I had more fun watching my nieces and nephews open their gifts than anything else.

My Parents

I love them so much. They put us up in Texas for about 2 weeks and were the PERFECT hosts. They waited on us hand and foot. We didn't have one hunger pang the entire vacation because they always had hot, delicious food ready and waiting for us. My parents give and give and give and never ask for anything in return (except a little appreciation). The older I get, the more I can appreciate all the have done and all they do for their children.

Becoming Parents

No parent is perfect (not even mine) and I understand this. Every parent will screw their kid up in some form or fashion. Still, I worry that I will not be a good enough parent, that I will fail somehow. With pregnancy becoming more and more of a reality, my insecurities are popping up more and more. All I've ever really wanted was to have children of my own and raise them well. What if I get the children, but can't raise them well?

Boxing

I think I want to look into some form of boxing for exercise. I have always had a lot of pent up anger (verging on rage). I don't know where it comes from, but it is there. Jesus has been my punching bag for the last 10 years and he suggested I take up boxing instead. I told him I didn't want to go to work with a busted up lip, but he's pretty sure that there is protection I can wear and that it wouldn't get that serious anyway. I don't know about that -- I've seen women fight and they an get nasty. Still, I think I'm going to look into it. I'd love to punch something really hard!