It's not that I'm being selfish -- I didn't realize it was happening until I had to hold back the tears. But I get really angry and jealous on Mother's Day. It didn't help that I watched Juno tonight for the first time.
After I said, "Happy Mother's Day" to my sister-in-law as we were leaving her house she automatically said, "Happy Mother's Day to you" and then immediately apologized.
I had a lady at Martin's who was handing out free samples of food tell me "Happy Mother's Day" and I didn't correct her.
My other sister-in-law put up a Happy Mother's Day wish on the family website and then included all women because we all "mother" somebody. Which was a sweet sentiment. She was trying.
I guess this is what it feels like for the romantics who don't have anyone to love (or to love them back) on Valentine's Day.
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I've never been a fan of Mother's Day. It always seems to put too fine a point on all the negatives, such as being childless or having a mom you'd just as soon not speak to, or a mom who's passed away. It cuts in so many ways. Even one of the poet bloggers had to put something up about, "write a poem about your mother." I scrolled away. I suppose on the positive side, if you were unclear about how deeply you felt about the subject, a sharp Mother's Day poke will make your emotions completely clear.
On this side of the world, things were laid back. I haven't spoken to my mom in months and if my luck holds out things will continue on this same vein. So I avoided that forced Mother's Day thing. My favorite grandmother, who is dead, came to me in a dream and let me hug her. Jojo cleaned the kitchen and I took a glorious nap within the sound of the rain.
See how complicated it is?! Nothing is straightforward joy.
By the way, it was great seeing you Saturday. Dinner in a week or two?
hey, im with you on this one. i cant believe you could even watch Juno. i havent because im not sure i could make it through it. i slept most of the day and read a romance novel.i did call my mom, but then again i call her every day so it wasnt "special". we did got to dinner with part of andy's family. when i got to work this morning and the security guard asked me how my mothers day was i smiled graceously and said "i dotn have kids so it doesnt really matter to me." i hate how people automatically assume. Gloria im glad i found you so we can go thru this together.....:)
Thanks to both of you for your sympathy and empathy. It's horrible, but I feel better knowing someone else understands my pain.
I never thought of the other ways Mother's Day could cut, but I can see now, that it is not always a happy day.
Charmi -- I can't promise anything about dinner right now because I'm so overwhelmed with things I've going on. But we would definitely love to have dinner with you two (or we can leave they guys out, I don't mind). Let me talk to Jesus and look at our calendar and figure something out. Thanks.
Erica -- I know what you mean about finding each other. You don't feel so alone when you know there is someone out there who understands. It is hard to talk to anyone else about it. Jesus is the most wonderful husband, but even he doesn't totally understand what I'm going through.
Remember GloMo:
We are mamas to our dogs and our students!! They NEED us. :)
Kurran also understands us Erica.
And yeah, my mom sent me a mother's day card that was to that affect -- that I mother my students. I do feel like their mom sometimes. Do they ever slip and call you mom? I love it when they do that.
All the time!!! I'll be ticked if they start calling me "Granny!"
Actually, Khalea asked me yesterday if Bill and I would be her parents. I would have done it in a heartbeat. :(
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